my mind...sayin'

wah,dah lama ga nulis di my blog...
pa kbr dirimu,,???
so mizzz u...


i don't know how to begin it... you know there's something wrong with my heart..
i can't tell it to another.. what must i tell when i feel that???
i don't know.. like the end of this bottom of heart, i can't make any progress,just some question in my mind??
is that?? how could??? is the a place 4 me???
although i never feel it, but now so difficult 4 me to make any suggest n guess that is it true or just my feel??
anybody wanna love n be loved..
but,in this case, that's difficult choices 4 me..
you know that i try to close but i confused...
there's a place in my heart n i know that's love...
this time,no reason 4 me to keep stay here..
although i say it but i'll go faraway this step...
so, why dont tell me the truth,
when i remember it thus, love isn't instant n it needs process..
first, i think it ussual but when i try close n more close,
i found the differences, something that i can't explain with my words...
something, that my heart beats.....
do you feel the same??? when i'm only dreamy...
why don't trust it,,, that's difficult...
when, i'll go from this place, may be to late for you say it...
n may be u can't face me again with all memorizes that ever felt...
no wonder, whatever i'll make it more differences n
this time, if there's no more time i'll save out it...
keep my mind, my heart n my beating for another purposes...

that's what i tell

dearest, my abstract-fren....my blog

now, i just wanna make my world more brighter..
one thing that i wanna tell that's very fed up when u look at someone ignore u.

what's up??? never feel it before

wanna judge that,but i don't have any reason... why?

that's an emphatic case when i got something wrong that make another worst..

u know why, actually i can't say any words to build around it..

what a simple but uncertainty case. how could i stand this feeling when i met him in different faces.. i guess nothing...

night, sometimes i never knew what happen with this heart..

so difficult... do you still remember how we used tobe??

feeling together, believe in whatever...

how can u see into my arms like u wanna...

there's so many things i wish i didn't do,but i continue learning...

so many thing tht i wanna tell n ask...

so faraway when i see this tears, could u feel this mind...

u make me hate all thing that i couldn't know the answer...

before,in past time i never know it,. so,the light come from ur eyes..

i think that's bad condition when i close it, but there's somethin' different...

u change this mind, could u know how difficult 2 find it...

close ur eyes,give me ur hands....

do u feel my heart beating, how could...
now, let me save out from this tears, no wonder..
until the end,,, i can't call it anymore before u look at back...
just close whatever n however u wanna...
i wanna enjoy this condition before anything has been changed...

Versi CINTA Q

Terkadang khidupan itu emg aneh. seribu satu alasan bahkan lebih dapat dilakukan...
huff,knapa org sllu dsibukan n dibikin ribet cuma gr2 kata cinta...
cinta itu bener2 sesuatu yg g bs dcerna lwt logika,
cinta itu aneh, cinta jg terkadang mbuat seorang ceria jd pemurung,
seorang serius jd suka bercanda.
cinta terkadang jg bs membuat org berubah seketika,.
cinta,,, lagi dan lagi kata itu membuat smua bs berubah...
apakah cinta itu dtgnya instan ataukah buth proses???
huff, binggung diriku... smakin dpikirkan smkin bikin ribet...
berbagai pertanyaan dr sekeliling muncul....
huff,terkdng ku pikir knapa hrs ada cinta???
tp,bukankah,cinta itu adlh fitrah,ia bagian dr hidup...
entahlah, perasaan ini tak pernah q mengerti???

cinta,,,

ingin rasanya ku terjemahkan lewat untaian bahasaku..

tp,ktka ku tuliskan.. hati ini serasa tak kuasa tuk mengungkapkannya...

cinta,,,

awalnya ia terlihat biasa dan tak terduga seketika ia mjdi luar biasa,.

awalnya ia tak menarik hingga akhirnya ia mengubah sudut pandang ini..

awalnya ia membosankan hingga ia berubah seperti magnet yg melekat pd hati....

awalnya ia keributan hingga ia menjelma jd suatu peradaban damai...

awalnya tak kenal hingga berbuah indah dalam suatu ikatan hati...

cinta,,,

seribu misteri terungkap lwt syair pujangga yg pernah q baca,,

katanya cinta terkadang bisa lbh manis dr madu yg termanis,.

tp, katanya cinta jg bs lbh pahit dr pahitnya empedu dunia..

cinta,,,

tak pernah berani tuk q coba rasakan...

tak pernah bsa q mengartikan setiap ronanya...

tak pernah n tak pernah ingin q rasakan,

tp,cinta seolah tlah menyengatku dgn medan magnetnya...

cinta,,,

meski gemetar tangan saat menguraikan ronamu,,

meski tersendat bahasa ku menterjemahkanmu,

tp tetap saja engkau seolah bungkam...

cinta,,,

tak mudah bagiku untuk jatuh cinta n mengatakan cinta,,

tp,tak kuasa bagiku menolak adanya...

cinta,,,

satu hal yg ingin ku beritahukan padamu,cinta...

biarkanlah ku jaga cinta ini hanya u/Rabb Q n seseorang yg spesial..

ijinkan ku menjaga cinta ini hanya u/ pendampingku,kelak...

ingin q bungkus n bingkai cinta ini sbg kado spesial cintaku...

entah, siapakah yg kan nanti menjadi pangeran hatiku...

biarkan ia dtg dgn membawa bingkai cinta hati yg hanya tertuju u/ku...

cinta,,,

maafkanlah jikalau diriku tak sempurna...

ijinkan ku hiasi n jaga sllu cinta ini...

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